Journal on Yellow Wall-paper
... of being trapped in the bedroom by her husband. It also becomes a ‘view’ of all that she has thought about becoming and wants to be. But as she turns more and more into her own reality, she comments, “I don’t like to look out of the window…there are so many of those creeping women, and they creep so fast.” (Gilman) She determines this means she has to lie low and creep around in order to be part of society. It no longer serves as a way to the outside, because she feels she’ll still be controlled by her husband and will still be forced to creep around along the ground. The wall-paper plays two different roles for her as she enters more into her reality. It keeps her in the bedroom because the intricate patterns it has never satisfy her, but in the end it sets her free. She describes the wall-paper as: “the color is repellent, almost revolting; a smouldering unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow-turning sun.” (596 Gilman) She becomes so obsessed with the wall-paper that she starts to see changing shapes appear and disappear within the patterns. This becomes her only source of entertainment because of her husband’s control in making sure she stays locked in the bedroom, even though at first she said, “I should hate myself ...